Two hints lust, then I mix some charm with a dash of wits.

in the past few days, it seems there is more and more talk of death. You always hear of people dying, but the past couple of days i have become strangely aware of it. And the only thing i have to say about death is...

it scares me.

it scares me because i dont know when its gonna happen, i dont know when someone will suddenly be gone forever.
it scares me because i dont understand it. i dont understand why people have to die, why things have to end. nobody knows why.
it scares me because i know one day im gonna die, and i will be gone forever. everything in me will end. the only thing that will be left of me is a memory and a few bones.
it scares me because its the only thing i am afraid of. it is the only thing i am constantly afraid of. i can be momentarialy afraid of a person, i can be momentarialy afraid of heights, but death is the only thing that i am always afraid of.

but im not going to let my fear control me. ive made to many bad descisions based on this fear already.

*sigh* its light out side.. and i have to stay inside and do homework...